Living and Forgiving.

Dear Sister,
 
Along with all my cares and worries, I find a comfort in believing you care about me. You are sourced from love, and God above has blessed you with loving kindness. I’m sorry that the world is ending, and I’m afraid of dying here and going on to judgement. I know you don’t want anything bad to happen to me, and I know you would not wish harm in my direction, but I’m feeling downtrodden and heavy laden about the end. Please pray for me, and forgive me for being short tempered and mean to you. I was writing from a place of despair, and challenged with disquiet and sadness. Please know I care about you, and want what is best for us all, but am feeling disappointed at which way this is all headed. I forgive you for not rescuing me, and ask for your forgiveness for my short comings. I’m sorry I snarled at you, and accused you of not caring if I die. You were my hope in the Advent, and now the end has come and I don’t want to be condemned to die, and to fall into perdition.
 
I want redemption, and salvation. I want to be redeemed and saved. I don`t want to be destroyed and damned and left in suffering, when I could have been blessed with life in the hereafter. I`m afraid to lay my life down, not knowing what I will find on the other side, and hope I don`t have to suffer, when Greater Love could have come to the rescue. I`ve been unwell lately, and said some things I shouldn`t have, and hope I didn`t hurt your feelings, but I feel hopeless and lost. It is very difficult to imagine being saved, but I`m still dreaming for a savior. I know you are my messiah, and still pray one day you will be interceding on my behalf. You are my advocate, and my friend, I just feel so alone by myself with no help from anyone. 
 
I find it hard to know exactly what you have been going through. However, I can honestly say, you have surely been through much, and I also have had a very deeply impacted heart, from everything I have witnessed in these last days. I understand that your journey has been difficult, and I know that there have been troubles and trials for us both, but I am holding firm to the understanding of your Greater Love which you spoke of, and am hoping you will be my protector, and my Christ. I take comfort in knowing you care about me, and that you do not hold me down under the weight of hatefulness. I want you to know too, that I care about you, and I forgive. Please remember me and keep a prayer in your heart for your brother in Christ. I want you to know I love you, and that no matter what happens, I hope for grace to cover us. Please offer me your forgiveness and let us be reconciled in spirit and love. 

You'r Friend Daniel,