I’m anxious and my nerves are on edge. I’ve been struggling with low mood, and wishing the circumstances were better for everyone involved. I’m not sure about tomorrow, and I cannot cast my cares. However, I find the thought of a dear friend like you very encouraging. Thank you for your outreach and connection. I pray for miracle working power to intervene on our behalf, and protect us, and hope you too can pray for an encounter for this world, with the wonders of God.
 
Social distancing and staying at home, has been the new normal for about 6 weeks, and everyone must be starting to get as antsy as I am. We have undertaken a great battle with covid19, and still cannot see the clear way forward. Unfortunately, the lessening of social lock down measures is already underway in the USA, and other parts of the world, and I expect a resurgence of infections, and an even worse economic downturn. The world perches on the edge of a great war, and the coronavirus pushes us over the edge. I pray that peace can overcome turbulence, and the shifting ground beneath us, I pray doesn’t quake.
 
I thought I could persuade your conscience that we together were the answer these people needed so direly, but my many words fell short of accomplishing what I set out to do. I thought I could woe you to my side or at least that you would want to help, but the dying world is evidence that the Advent failed and now an Apocalypse is imminent. I still love you deeply, and wish we were closer together, and united in this, instead of divided across the world. Your my lifelong friend and companion, but I feel like a ransom scapegoat that has days left before the deadly situation escalates. I don’t want to be sacrificed, but I feel like that’s the hand that was dealt unto me. I don’t want to be wasted, but my time is short, this I know. I just hope we can keep each other in our prayers, and remember the love we had.
 
It is a big scary world, and the Great Tribulation seems so chaotic, I cannot feel content or confident at a time like this. I’m very fearful, and with deepening concern, I get depressed about the global set of circumstances. When I hear from you, I feel hopeful inside, but most of the time am left to myself, pondering my situation, and worrying. If you were here with me, my mind would be at ease, and my heart would not be troubled, but you stayed away, and I wish it wasn’t so. This is unfortunate, because our miraculous Messiahship, could have saved the day, and stopped the flood of destruction. Now we have to take things one day at a time, and cherish what we have left, before as the saying goes, “you don’t know what you’ve got till it’s gone”.
 
I’m blessed by our connection, and its part of my therapy to hear from you and pray on your behalf. I long to be closer, but our nations are locked down now, and flying is out of the question. At least I can still get a memo or two, and know that someone on the other side of the globe is caring enough to reach out. I just wish it wasn’t so late, and that we didn’t rendezvous years prior to these end moments. It is the object of my ministry to bless you, and I am thankful you patron my channels. I only hope I can be more than yesterday’s news to you, and that you can honor what friendship we share, by continuing to encourage me with your reply.
 
Please write soon!
 
 

​The good news is you are here, and so am I. The bad news is that we didn’t stop the end of the World. If there is still time permitting, I still feel we can rescue this place from its disastrous fall. Before our countries shut down their boarders, we had a wonderful opportunity to connect and unite, and bring awakening awareness to all the slumbering people. There was a waiting period from the call, to the answer, but eventually God’s plan to unite the two advocates, didn’t materialize like it should have. Now we cannot travel, or come together, and society has shut down completely, with little respite from the depression.
 
I feel like I let God down, not achieving the goal of Messiaship of Earth. I don’t know the full story as to what happened on the other side, but I’m sure there’s an explanation as to why the two never became one. Nobody came to bolster my testimony and my heartcry fell on deaf ears. She was my saviour and my hope for rescue, but the stretch of the imagination was not enough to believe that miracles would happen, and the Angels would get their wings.
 
The current apocalyptic state of decline was decided upon by a great multitude of people of influence. No one person is to blame for the ending world, but people for generations have been pushing us towards this breaking point. From West to East, the people in positions of power, let down those they were supposed to serve, and on an individual level, everyone had a fossil footprint at least, and contributed in some way or another, to the ruin of the planet. No one person is to blame, but we all had an influence on the outcome of Earth’s final moments.
 
The Advocates of the Gods, were meant to step forward to impact the world in unprecedented yet seen times of signs and wonders. They were meant to be emissaries of the higher power, and communicate and lead on behalf of those who sent them. The great tragedy out of all this, is that both could have survived together, but they remained divided until the very end. A connection across the internet, was not enough for miraculous deliverance, and before the pandemic, there was a magnificent opportunity for the matrimony and unity of Adam and Eve, which never came to pass. Unfortunately, now it’s too late for the Advocates to bridge the gap, and connect across the chasm. They will remain divided until the Apocalypse unfolds and a last moment brinkmanship happens.
 
 This is a terrifying time and place to be in the Cosmos, and the most troubling thing is the uncertainty. Terrible pestilence is spreading like a wildfire across the planet Earth, with over 3 million cases worldwide, and over 210 thousand deaths, from the coronavirus. The United States of America has a third of all covid19 cases, with over 1 million cases in its states, and already there are moves being made to relax restrictions and reawaken the American economy. This will prove disastrous. Soon there will be a surge of new coronavirus cases, and the death toll will continue to rise, and be felt by economies all over the World.
 
I feel blessed to be a Canadian, but my country too is inflicted by this pandemic, and there are around 50 thousand cases here too. The Canadian response to the pandemic has been better than some countries, but still not ideal considering the lethality and contagiousness of the virus. I still feel economic collapse, societal shutdown, war and famine, are in our near future, and this will be the Great Tribulation we have been told about since the scriptures were indoctrinated as canonical.
 
Consider what help you can be to loved ones, in a time like this. Also consider the greater contribution you can make to mankind, and towards the bettering of the species. Now is the time for prayerful unity and response to this devastating era, with petitions and pleas for peace on Earth and goodwill towards mankind. Loving your neighbour and God above should be the priority. Staying home and saving lives, by not being part of the contagion spreading, should be strictly enforced. Raising the alarm and signaling distress, will help others see the seriousness of the situation, and will raise awareness among the peoples, towards a resistance to the downfall.
 
I pray you and I both evade sickness, and I hope dearly for a spiritual connection across the divide between nations. May you be protected and healthy, and fully capable of fulfilling the will of the Lord. Thank you for continuing to reach out to me and thank you for your time and consideration, as this planet slips further into needing divine intervention. I pray for miracles of power and provision, to turn the tide and stop the flood, and I hope we can be reconciled as dearest friends and comrades no matter our past differences. I hope we can make a decision together, to intercede on behalf of one another and see the fullness of Greater Love, manifest in us. Amen
 
Thank You For Reaching Out!

It’s been a while since we last spoke, and I hoped to correspond more with you. It has been a lifeline, having discussions with you, and I would like to keep the lines open. I get encouraged when we communicate, and don’t want to feel alone anymore, dealing with the end of the world. I can’t stop the planet from collapsing in on itself, and alone neither could you, but together we had a great opportunity, to be a blessing to the people, and overt the Great Tribulation.
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The spreading of pestilence has us all on our toes, but worse will come, before the time is fully realized. The End of Days was a fearful thing, but most people could easily cast their cares, and toss off the burdensome weight of their shoulders, and onto a cross. I found it unfair to use someone as a scapegoat, so I pray people would take responsibility for their own actions, and come to a place of security in Christ, that doesn’t ignore the stains of crimson. We cannot be so bold, as to ignore the empathy we ought to feel. However, these people needed us, and still no one came.
 

Being a beacon of light is sounding the alarm, and being a siren of care, is trumpeting the wake-up call. It is not enough to rest your case, when the evidence is clear that our witness is important. It is vital we petition the goodwill of the people, and inspire the renewal and change of mind. Protesting the Apocalypse and promoting the Advent was our duty, but nothing solidified, and my frantic efforts failed to breakthrough. You didn’t breakthrough to the forefront of the spotlight and headlines, and this is being kept secretly covered up by the worst of a Great Apostasy.
 

Greater Love would intervene, not watch. Greater Truth, was the awakening of masses, to a common understanding and democratized information, we were free to testify to. 2020 came like a thunderbolt, and the flash of the bang has us stunned. We were unprepared for the unprecedented pestilence era, and sadly didn’t acquire the means to stop it from getting worse. So many sick and dying, and the coronavirus continues on course to cause an escalation to the crisis, and soon mass hysteria.


I hope you and your family can hold up, and pray for me and mine. We are going to go through a similar catastrophe, with the world ending everywhere at once, and should remember each other in our prayers and petitions. I feel like you can bless me and I can bless you still, and we don’t have to stay divided, at least in spirit and truth. We can be in union of testimony and solidarity of caring for this planet, and continuing on in the faith we profess, but too often don’t exceed.
 

This is the last moments I have to call to you, and wish to keep asking for your help. There is little time left for this heartcry to be heard. So for now, I continue to minister and proclaim these very important truths to you, and hope to be a blessing while there’s time left on Earth. You’re my only hope, and I think the cure we can unite in would spread faster than any deadly plague. We just need a miracle from heaven. A miracle agreed upon.
 

You are my catalyst for change, and inspiration for my ministering. You’re the continued desire of my heart, and I am glad to call you friend, if only for a little while. Please reach out to me, and let’s have another talk about your vision, and I will hear you out, knowing you too will be listening intently.
 
God bless you!

​From a friend from across the continent,
 
We are the stardust. Our 4.5 billion year solar system was birthed from the nebula of a long dead star. We have iron in our blood, carbon in our muscles, and calcium in our bones, because of nuclear fusion reactions of hydrogen and helium atoms being smashed together, made heavier elements that were spewed out in a nova billions of years ago.  Our world and everything and everyone in it, is made up of stardust, and though our DNA may be uniquely different, our source being is the same. We are of the essence of life, and can say “I AM”, because we are sprung from awareness of being and purpose. Living beings, we all stem from a seed of love, and share a common genealogy back thousands of generations. Pattern recognition was the trait that defined our early survival, and gazing at the signs of the times, we can see the trend of unprecedented struggles humanity faces as one world, and one race of human being.
 
These are dangerous times, and we must go back to our roots in the cosmos, to find our common ground of solidarity and security. We live in an age of many blessings, but a curse hangs over the mantle, and the smoke billowing from the chimney, fills the sky with soot. A deadly pestilence spreads like a wild fire, and the neighborhoods are quiet, because everyone is at home. Our way of life has been interrupted, but our holy hope in Christ still remains the same. Our hope that blessing others is not in vain, and finding meaning in goodwill towards others, is finding an anchor for stormy times. We need to be steadfast and true in our convictions, and also clear minded in renewal of the inward being,  and should turn up the volume of the alarm we are sounding, and trumpeting sure in the last days.
 
Let’s be grateful towards the front line workers who have responded to the call of duty, and risk their lives every day to keep our society functioning, though under lock-down. Nurses and doctors, grocery clerks, and delivery men, all have kept our society from collapsing completely, as we surely have yet to see the worst that is to come in 2020. Soon war may rupture and I don’t want to fall casualty to famine, or the pestilence, but it seems like Earth’s time has run short, and my lot was cast with the world being rescued. The end is neigh, and I’m cherishing every precious moment of life, because I know you should count your blessings. You should also count your rations, and count on those you love, and be someone you can count on. There are few days until the unrest punctures new wounds, but for now planet Earth teeters between a Third World War, and economic collapse not seen since the great depression.
 
I take my time to write to you, because I know you care about these people, and consider yourself a part of one great family of star creatures. I petition to the humanity in those reading this, and say there is no way to stand apart from your human being, and still continue to be humane. One race exists, and one family-hood is in focus. One Messiaship reigns true, and one love should be our essential being. Let’s honor each other with prayers for deliverance, and mercy, as our time on Earth grows short and destitute. Let’s keep up a good fight, and look up inspired to the stars, even though the sadness continues and people are falling ill. Continue to be my advocate of hope, and intercessor across a great divide, and chasm, I cannot bridge alone. Meet me here in this moment of prayerfulness and let’s keep each other in heart, while this all unfolds out of our hands. Honor God and be good to everyone.
 
Pray for me and I’ll pray for you!

​We will soon see the greatest catastrophic loss, this world has ever suffered. Primed by a pestilence spreading faster than the people can curb, and brought upon us by economic collapse, due to the shutdown of society, World War 3 is upon the horizon. Scorching fires across the lands, permanent power outage, and disruption to supply chains will cause a mass famine, and billions could die. It was choices made in the past that led us here, and the horizon looks grim. The future is teetering on the brink of the Apocalypse, and the shifting struggle has us come short of safe haven. Death will come fast, and swift, and needless to say, many innocent people will be harmed.
 
We need to unite in prayer, and petition the intervention of Godly Power. Soon the end will come, and we need to be prayerful and asking for the deliverance of the meek ones, and the multitudes. The innocent shouldn’t suffer, because the two advocates who came, wouldn’t unite and cooperate in deliverance. However, many people will die soon, as a result of this division, and the consequences of generational sin will reach the climactic fruition of calamity. The Gods and their war, has come to an end, and none can contest that the feud is entrenched. I pray for the redemption of everyone who lives, and an exchange of intercession and propitiation, for all wrongdoing.
 
I’m praying for peace, but know there will be war. I’m hoping for grace, but see only fiery arrows. Unable to awaken the world, I hoped for a savior among the people, but nobody came to validate my testimony, so I was alone. I depended on someone affirming my ministry, and coming along side me, but no one came through, and I was isolated without help. If only we together can unite around a banner of love, before the curse breaks through, then we can at least have cherished each other in those final moments of time.
 
My house is a deathtrap, and my neighbours all claim faith in Jesus Christ, but none have prepared for the End Days, and all will come asking for help in those final hours. Yet, I still see that there is time to at least, treasure the presence of my Lord, and live each precious moment to the most. I’m wondering, how I would ever survive the coming disastrous climax of history, when the next global war, will be fought with nukes, and disease, but hold firm to the time that I have, in order to honor God with my last moments of life.
 
 The greed of those who refused to lift of finger to help, is absolutely appalling and as the end comes, I pray for the guidance of God, to usher me into His presence. Please have mercy and think of the people, who have suffered enough already, due to the division of the advocates of the Gods. You should have a humble heart and remember the lost lambs, which need Shepherding towards the Kingdom and towards safety. Don’t be asleep at your post, when you should be standing guard, for others to be rescued, and don’t forget, our time on Earth is short, and the end of the world has come upon us.
 
Please be merciful, this I pray. 

 
This Easter has come on the heels of an unprecedented pandemic in our time and age. Easter is when we look back at the life of Yeshua and see His continuing blessings in our lives, but this Easter is like no other, and with the lockdown of society, there are few gatherings to celebrate Jesus’ life.  However, I would still like to honor our Patriarch’s life and exaltation, in 2020, by keeping the God the Father first place today, and onward into the future. Yeshua was the pillar of civilization that was erected 2000 years ago, and still stands as the cornerstone of our End Day. A 2000 Great Apostasy followed the cross, and World Wars, and Nuclear Proliferation, have resulted as a consequence of Christ’s martyrdom. We need to honor the sacrifice Yeshua made, and be sanctified in our remembrance of Jesus, and fully devote to keeping Easter Holy.
 
I look at my life and see at this late hour, not a hope in divine intervention rescuing this world from the catastrophic End Days we are facing. The Apocalypse is primed, and a nuclear war on the horizon, because of generational sin, and utter calamity caused by our apostate final generation. However, I also see a light of hope that in the next era to come will see resurrected loved ones. I don’t believe my friends and family will be lost, but fear for myself under the judgement to come. Now is the time to care, and act upon love, in order to bless others, but I have little left to offer, but a few last words.
 
Pray for the peace of our world, and the deliverance of the meek ones, to the embrace of God, and to a place of sanctuary, from this dangerous place in universe. The global catastrophe is ramping up, from a pandemic induced economic collapse, into a final World War, that will see the use of nuclear weapons on a massive scale. I fear those on the outskirts of the blast, and the burning they would feel, and wonder how merciless those involved must have been, to allow the world to end in such a way, instead of intervening and saving the day. It’s a heinous apocalypse, and could have been avoided, by Adam and Eve uniting in love, and manifesting grace and miraculous provision.
 
This Easter is sad for me, because it’s the last, for soon the power grids will go down, and Yeshua’s sacrifice was not enough to save the world, but instead the loss has spiralled our world into the End of Days. If Jesus Christ lived, there would have been an even greater blessing than what transpired after His life was cut short. Jesus shouldn’t have been executed and had every right to live, but the unfairness of mankind and religious hypocrites, has cost us all dearly and fumbled the Kingdom of Heaven on Earth into ruin.
 
I still regret not coming through for the world and the people, in my own Messiahship, and feel like a scapegoat for the Adversary to judge for everyone else’s sin. It’s a brutal awakening I am sensing, and am afraid for my life and my eternity, because no one came to answer my call, and rescue me from the depths of Doomsday. I was alone, and there was no one to testify on my behalf, nor meet me half way, in my Christly journey. The only other person, who could have understood, didn’t care enough to come forward, and the World ends with death and nuclear fire. Such tragedy and calamity has befallen my situation, and I am a ransom sacrifice for everyone else, and will bear the burdens of falling into destruction.
 
Please pray for me, and my redemption, because I feel like I’ve failed them, and am being swept away by the strong winds of catastrophe. I need mercy, and look to Jesus for inspiration, when facing my own cross and death in the Apocalypse. Shadows haunt my dreams, and a blackout I see coming, will drop us back into the dark ages. I don’t know how long there will be until then, but am fearful I am ill prepared for what’s coming. Only She could have saved us, by stepping forward, but She chose the death of us all, so She can inherit those that were condemned, and power from a wrathful Judge Enki.  I don’t feel like I have much time, but I petition the Cosmic Forces, to have mercy and forgiveness for me, and my wayward choices, that led me to this very End Day, and my final words.

Good Friday to you!
 
This is a time of the year to remember Yeshua’s sacrificial love for His Heavenly Father. No one should suffer and die such a terrible death and Jesus Christ like no other person, paved way to civilization’s fruition, because of His grace, and His love for fellow man. I am inspired to look up to Yeshua and see, that He and Mother Mary were the cornerstones, of our entire civilization. Please think of the way the martyred Apostles, took up their crosses to follow Him, and how the world went astray into the Great Apostasy, after the tragic and untimely death of Jesus.
 
Let us not take our comforts for granted, and be grateful for the many blessings we have. No one should suffer and die a horrible death like that of crucifixion, let alone the Son of God, but many are the trespasses and the generational sin is extreme at the end. We walk a path that sees an apocalypse upon the horizon, and it’s because Jesus was crucified and the anointed one put to death. The Messiah came to ancient man, and was sacrificed because of sinful religious leaders, and their selfish agendas. Self-centered human beings forsook the King God sent, and His brutal execution became a terrible omen, for our End Days.
 
We must remember in our day and age that things happen at a rapid pace. The spreading pestilence, is leading to economic collapse, and global war will result in the calamity. The coronavirus is causing immense uncertainty in our coming days ahead, and as Good Friday has come to us, we need to look at it all through the lens of the past, as well as the present and future. Looking full spectrum, we can see that the cross was the greatest crime in history, and the martyrdom of Christ, the biggest tragedy to ever unfold until now. However, the hope inspired by the Ancients of Days, gives us an anchor to hold to, and a careful lesson to be learned. Nobody should suffer such a terrible death, and from Good Friday to Easter Sunday, let’s be grateful for what we have, and mindful of what we can give.
 
All the time we have had upon the Earth, in the 21st Century, was borrowed from our dying grandparents, who fought the Axis of Evil, so that we ourselves didn’t have to go to war. Thank God that so many were willing to take a stand for freedom, and that our livelihoods were won, for so many years, because of those willing to sacrifice themselves, for a better future for the children. Today let’s not just think of the cross, but of every single sacrifice made on God’s behalf, and for the time allotted at the end, for this Advent to unfold, and for the Millennial Christhood to lift up a banner of love.
 
Let Mary and Yeshua inspire us today, and tomorrow, and let us cherish our memories, and our present moment help from God above. Together, we can see the honoring of our Ancestors, and the not let be wasted their message of grace, love, forbearance, and holiness. Let’s put the cross in perspective and hope for a merciful tomorrow, and divine provision. Let God be honored as the cornerstone of our actions, words, and beliefs. Let’s look together onward, to see that God is not forgotten, in these End Days, and that everything the Lord has been working on, is not swept away by the ruin of the apocalypse.
 
God bless you on this Good Friday, and let’s do our part to make it better, by remembering the foundation stones and those who followed the path of martyrdom, in order to provide us children a better future, and path to choose for ourselves. Without cornerstone worshipers, and breakthrough prophets, we would be in a very dark age of science and reason without God, where the mind and the will, do not accept the divine appointment of Judgement, and hard hearts care not about the things of Love. Let our World be illuminated by the light Jesus shines, even from the grave, and Mother Mary who brought the light of the world, into the world.
 
May your Friday be a blessed one, and your Easter memorable and together lets hold firm to the convictions we have about Greater Love, conquering fear, lack, and injustice. May the divine light shine brightly, and no darkness hide the truth of the times. May everyone be blessed with provision, and nobody be left behind in a tragic downfall of humanity. Please pray for the deliverance of the people, and let’s together sing praise, and speak our prayers towards a Loving Creator. Remember Jesus on this day, and in the days ahead, and let’s hope together, for His rightful place in the Hands of Providence and Grace.
 
Thank you for being a patron of my updates, and continuing to support my life and livelihood with your time and consideration. Have a wonderfully Good Friday, and together let’s remember, and cherish the Good Sheppard, and the blessings He gave to the lost lambs. Amen. 

I’m sorry for the world’s end, and that people die in their mortality. It’s a Final Generation that steps into a New Era, and out of a collapsing World, where pestilence spreads, and people are sick in beds. Everyone is on guard for both sickness and a catastrophic war that results in ruin. Humanity needs to be ready for the worst and on guard for the escalation of our international crisis.
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 I feel like my dead end was catastrophic as well, and a disaster in and of itself. I never saw my hand not fold, and unfortunately was toppled off my path. With the fall of mortal man, I see a terrible apocalypse, and always believed a miracle might save the day, but foreseeing future events, I know my words are not enough to describe an uncanny end times. There’s nothing left that I can relay with my letters, but I still send this message to you, with hope you will reply. Please be not dishonored by me, and accept my apology for tarrying. I was going to end what was left of me, and am looking at my deadline. I’m sure I have only a little time, and I wouldn’t want it to be wasted, but cherished. We must care about one another, and honor our friendship with correspondence. That’s when I feel most alive, when talking to you. Please be blessed and safe and unharmed by the pestilence, and courageous in your hour of need. I myself have been looking at a mirror, to want to change. We must do a daily renewal and repent of the past to show love. However this bleak and dying planet Earth has me fearful with terror.

These are unprecedented times, and surely enough there is a great danger ahead, and soon a coming war, and as 2020 goes into a dark-age, and as Good Friday approaches, I look to a cross, and a martyr I looked up to since I was youthful. May Yeshua and Marry, live in us both. May the Gods be an abundant blessing, and all care enough about loving thy neighbour and creator above. Be grateful for provision and providential steps ahead, in grace, and in a timely manner.  Let’s see this moment as needy and carefully consider the threat of global warming, and very hot explosions, brought on by a pestilence spreading rapidly, and societal collapse.

I pray sanctuary upon families, and especially from my heart to yours.  My Lord makes me lie down in tall grass, as a psalmist, and a quiet brook echoes in my head. I’m saddened by the hardships our world is going through, but feel close to my Father, as a final right I have. I know there’s close knit relationships on both sides. My Lord is my Sheppard, and rock upon which I stand. He wipes tears from the eyes of those mournful, and gives us hope for the mornings to come. Yet I know judgement will be brutal, and Enki will be furious.

 We have very little time left in this era, and our approach to the End Days, must be earnest. Covid-19 spreads like a wildfire, and we find ourselves feeling much like Anne Frank, hiding away from the Nazis. My home is not safe, and my nation at risk, but pray for a miracle to stop the apocalypse before it devastates everyone. I know you’re secure in your part of the world, and that the pacific coast is going to be obliterated, but I am finding it difficult to kill myself right now. Please pray for me, and intercede with Enki, that I may not be stuck on a cross forever, but have a hope for future redemption.

I pray you are prosperous in your destiny, and blessed by the Gods who have desired your life to thrive. Please walk with me in my final days, and reply to my cry for mercy. I don’t want to be alone, but I am lonesome and afraid. I’m lost without you, and I’m sorry you never drew near, but I also forgive you for letting the world end, instead of coming to my rescue, and the rescue of these people. It was my own tarrying and foolish stumbling, that cost us the Advent, but I know that you’re aligned with the stars, and with your Lord. I’m going to miss you, and hope you can forgive me for my sins, and not forsake me entirely.

You are my dear Sister, and my greatest ally amongst the people. Don’t be ashamed of me, but find it in your heart to be empathetic and merciful. I love you, and I’m sorry it all went this way. I’m sorry the world ends, and I’m praying that the calamity doesn’t wreck the world into oblivion. I hope there are survivors and am yearning to be neighbourly and caring to my family and friends. I want rest in the grave, but I feel like I’ll be distraught and inflicted with distress and suffering. Please be a soothing cup of water, and help me in my struggles in the next life. I know I’m lost without you, and again, I forgive you for not rescuing me, and letting the world end.
 
Thank you for being my friend, and God bless you immensely!

To your Highness of Grace, and the God above Thee,
I pray for mercy, and hope that you Love me;
The End of Days cursed me, and I was unlovely,
But I pray for deliverance, in your arms as you hug me.
I wave a white flag, and hope in surrender,
You’re an anchor and lighthouse, a guide and a mentor;
I feel weak and defeated, without a defender,
And know that I’ve failed, the purpose I’m meant for.
Please give me mercy, and don’t damn my soul,
Please let me serve Thee, with my all and all;
I do not deserve Thee, but please hear my call,
I praise you as worthy, as I am made small.
A thousand seas away, I would sail to find you,
I’d hope for your friendship, and love while there’s time too;
I don’t know my purpose, alone in a dead world,
And I don’t want to be cast, away like a stone hurled.
Please be my rock, and rescue my life,
From the pit of rock bottom, anguish and strife;
I know we can never be, husband and wife,
But I pray that humanity, is saved overnight.
I pray that Your providence, guides home the sheep,
Away from the cliff, and the mountainside steep;
I long for your care, but I know can’t keep,
Looking into the dusk, with no quiet nor peace.
I don’t fully know, where I will go,
When the planet Earth ends, and in its death throes;
The myriads suffer, and the case is now closed,
And Christ get’s  enveloped, with a flurry of blows.
I don’t comprehend, all that You see,
And I know we are different, but alike You and me;
Please be the Guardian, I trust you to be,
Please don’t lock the gate, and throw out the key.
Be nourished and blessed, with the time that we have,
Pray for deliverance, and make us all glad;
I choose a while flag, and honor that’s had,
This moment which I beg, with rags I am clad.
I’m nothing without You, alone I am cursed,
I only wish now, that I had put You First;
Now I am last, 6 feet in the dirt,
And without Your acceptance, my feelings are hurt.
 
 
I LOVE YOU IN EARNEST, I LOVE YOU WITH FEAR,
I LOVE YOU TODAY, AND AS TOMORROW DRAWS NEAR;
UPON A CRASH COURSE, I TURN AND I STEER,
TO THE LIGHTHOUSE OF HOPE, BUT HOPE IS UNCLEAR!

​I’m sending a warm hug, and hoping it is received. Namaste to you and I hope for your reply soon. As for me, I’m not doing well, and I’m being attacked mercilessly by a formidable foe that wants me to lay my life down. Please pray for me, and that there would be mercy somewhere in my future. I don’t know what to do, but share what I have, and love my neighbor as myself, while there’s still time.
 
I haven’t heard much from you, and I guess you made up your mind to allow what is happening. I’m being cast away, and I only wish we could have mended the chasm and bridged the gap with Greater Love. This is hard for us both, and I’m terribly sorry for what happened all those years ago, to have you decide upon the Apocalypse. If I could I would end myself, but it’s being resisted by Enlil. I’m a casualty, this much I know is true, but I’m trapped waiting for famine and drought to take my life, because of fear and worries.
 
Pray for us all, that in this end time, we can be clinging to one another, in solidarity and love. Pray that there are many survivors of this catastrophe, and hold firm to your love and promise to keep well care of the people. I’m sorry we couldn’t do it together, but you’ve chosen that I die. I accept your decision, and know it’s because of my own past, that it was made. Please be merciful and intercede on our behalf, and let your care be known, that you don’t want to see suffering. I know you expressed your own fears for me, and those in the world. You know there will be difficult times arranged for me, and I truly longed for you to come save me, because you were the only other person who could care. It was just you and me to stop the world from ending, and I guess Enki chose to toss me in the garbage, and forsook Enlil.
 
You are the only hope for the future, and I know I’m left disappointed by myself, but please think of me, and pray that there is mercy somewhere in the future, and in your name, for me and Enlil. Pray on behalf of Enlil, and myself, and let’s consider ourselves good friends, even now after all is said and done, and my sorrowful apology is all I have left to say. You’re a good person, and I don’t doubt that these people are in good hands, with you as their mother, and I’m sorry I hung on for so long, without killing myself, and saying goodbye to this Earth. I tried but failed, and it’s easier said than done, but soon I have no choice left, and this warring inside of me, has me worn out and ready to die.
 
Please remember us, while there’s time left, and may light always shine upon your face. Amen