One Last Sorry

​I’m sending a warm hug, and hoping it is received. Namaste to you and I hope for your reply soon. As for me, I’m not doing well, and I’m being attacked mercilessly by a formidable foe that wants me to lay my life down. Please pray for me, and that there would be mercy somewhere in my future. I don’t know what to do, but share what I have, and love my neighbor as myself, while there’s still time.
 
I haven’t heard much from you, and I guess you made up your mind to allow what is happening. I’m being cast away, and I only wish we could have mended the chasm and bridged the gap with Greater Love. This is hard for us both, and I’m terribly sorry for what happened all those years ago, to have you decide upon the Apocalypse. If I could I would end myself, but it’s being resisted by Enlil. I’m a casualty, this much I know is true, but I’m trapped waiting for famine and drought to take my life, because of fear and worries.
 
Pray for us all, that in this end time, we can be clinging to one another, in solidarity and love. Pray that there are many survivors of this catastrophe, and hold firm to your love and promise to keep well care of the people. I’m sorry we couldn’t do it together, but you’ve chosen that I die. I accept your decision, and know it’s because of my own past, that it was made. Please be merciful and intercede on our behalf, and let your care be known, that you don’t want to see suffering. I know you expressed your own fears for me, and those in the world. You know there will be difficult times arranged for me, and I truly longed for you to come save me, because you were the only other person who could care. It was just you and me to stop the world from ending, and I guess Enki chose to toss me in the garbage, and forsook Enlil.
 
You are the only hope for the future, and I know I’m left disappointed by myself, but please think of me, and pray that there is mercy somewhere in the future, and in your name, for me and Enlil. Pray on behalf of Enlil, and myself, and let’s consider ourselves good friends, even now after all is said and done, and my sorrowful apology is all I have left to say. You’re a good person, and I don’t doubt that these people are in good hands, with you as their mother, and I’m sorry I hung on for so long, without killing myself, and saying goodbye to this Earth. I tried but failed, and it’s easier said than done, but soon I have no choice left, and this warring inside of me, has me worn out and ready to die.
 
Please remember us, while there’s time left, and may light always shine upon your face. Amen